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Waking Life
By Louis Black, Julie Delpy, Adam Goldberg, Charles Gunning, Ethan Hawke
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I haven't visited Xanga in many months, but I felt that I needed to express feelings somehow and I remembered that I had one.
Basically, I want all cognitive function to end. I sat here for a good 20 minutes trying to think of ways I could end it. Drugs and drilling holes in my skull aside, I can't help but find myself constantly wondering who I am and what I'm becoming. Am I real? Do I exist? Am I just a character in another person's dream or my own?
Perhaps, I'm trapped in an endless cycle of disturbing, hallucinations of self-awareness. Unable to awake from such nightmares, I wander distantly; as though I'm watching events unfold from a safe distance. I am not moved by the events of this great movie. Only disconnected bits of dreams feel real and last only for a moment; leave me wanting to return to such states of truthfulness.
Lucid daydreams, never leave my side, either. I can't decide when they come (and believe me they do come at the most inconvenient times). Making my way, slowly, through the narrow corridors, back allies, and crowded bazaars that my brain has become, I realize I am wasting my time. I must assume my role as The Giver and be grateful for the opportunity and clarity that most others will not partake in.
It seems there are two roles you can play in life. Theory or action. Understand life or live it.
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1. Learn to drive.
2. If I want to be lazy and use my debit card to purchase crap, let me. Don't make me go buy a stupid subscription card to play games.
3.Pay me more.
4.Stop calling me every couple hours and texting me in between. When I said, I was going to a movie at 10 and would call you after, you didn't have to text me at 11 asking if I was out yet.
5.Don't ignore me.
6.Let me sleep at 2 AM.
7.Alarms should work and not allow me to oversleep.
8.Take a joke.
9.Don't steal from me.
10.Don't forget about me.
Each is directed to a different person and/or thing. Don't take it personally.
I'm going bed.
Good night.
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